January 15, 2020

My husband, Joshua, and I were very young and had dreams and expectations bigger than life when we got married. We moved to Los Angeles, California two weeks after tying the knot to begin our adventure together. We learned a lot about each other and ourselves during that time. But little did we know that was only scratching the surface of what was to come. We found out we were pregnant with our first child after a year of living there and decided it was best to move back home to be closer to family. With no complications, my son was born in 2010.

Nearly three years later we found out we were expecting again. I was so excited! I was more than ready to welcome another little one in hopes it was a girl to complete our family. It was close to Grandparent’s Day when...

January 9, 2020

We met in 2013 and were married in 2014. The first two years of our marriage were spent finishing our bachelor degrees while also working full time. Needless to say, we were both very busy and whenever people would ask when we were planning to have kids, we had the go-to answer of being preoccupied with school. After we graduated, we weren’t sure if we were ready for kids, but we wanted to go ahead and try.

Needless to say, we were quite surprised when the pregnancy test came back positive the following month. We scheduled an appointment with the doctor and she confirmed that I was roughly 6 weeks pregnant. We set up another appointment for an ultrasound at week 11.

We showed up for our ultrasound appointment at 8 o’clock on a Thursday morning. We were so excit...

October 24, 2019

Happy First Birthday Haddie. Mommy sure misses you here on Earth. I can’t imagine the celebrations in your honor today, as the Heavens celebrate the day you came home.  

This first year without you has broken my heart sweet girl. It’s the year they said, “I’m sorry, we can’t find a heartbeat, this never happens at 39 weeks!” It’s the year they asked, “Would you like your daughter buried or cremated?” “Would you like an autopsy of your baby?”

It was the year I labored for 13 devastating hours only to leave the hospital with empty arms and a broken heart. It was the year my son screamed at me and kicked me in fits not believing his baby sister died. It was the year I introduced my daughter to her sister through a casket, the year I watched my husband carry an imp...

October 22, 2019

Bridget, happy 5th birthday in Heaven, my strong and sweet baby girl.

It's so hard to believe that five years ago today that you were born and I held you in my arms. I will never forget that day for as long as I live. The day I met you, held you, and kissed you, was one of the best days of my life. My heart filled with a love that I had never known until that day. An unconditional, all-encompassing love that death could not touch.

That love has changed me and my life forever. Other than Jesus, no other person on this earth has made more of an impact on my life than you. 

I am so honored that I get to be your mommy and live out the calling God has for your life. I thank Jesus everyday that I am promised eternity in Heaven with you and I get the privilege to share...

September 15, 2017

We were so excited about being pregnant for the first time. We painted the baby's room, started decorating and stocking up on diapers. We were so excited about meeting our little Maddox. Everything was completely normal until 19 weeks into the pregnancy. Leilani thought she might have been leaking fluid so we went to the emergency room. At first everything checked out okay and we had an ultrasound done to make sure Maddox was still okay. The ultrasound tech said that she was just checking for fluid leakage but I got a suspicion something was wrong when the ultrasound took longer than we both expected and the tech was examining his body, specifically his arms. When that was over it felt like we waited forever to hear from the doctor again. Several hours later t...

December 10, 2016

The holidays can be a joyous time spent making memories with friends and family. It is a time for traditions and gatherings, meals and music, and giving and receiving. For many people, however, the holidays can be a painful time if they are missing loved ones in Heaven. The spirit of the season can magnify their grief and steal their joy.

As a mommy to a little girl in Heaven, I know that each year I seem to miss Bridget even more during the holidays. It's a time when her absence in our family seems to be amplified. I think about what memories we would be making with her, what traditions we would have started, and how cute she'd look in a Christmas dress in our family photos next to the tree. I wonder what she would look and be like, how our family would be int...

August 4, 2016

My husband Zac and I met in 2010, were married in 2012, and in 2014, we were ready to have a baby.  After about 6 months of trying, I found out I was pregnant on June 10, 2014.  I still give Zac a hard time because his reaction was not the one of excitement that I was expecting, he was in shock and didn’t say anything for several moments!  We couldn’t believe we were really going to have a baby.  We were so excited for what was to come.

I had a “normal” pregnancy, never felt sick, and was just beginning to show in late September 2014.  The excitement of having a baby was growing and things were starting to feel real.  We went to visit my parents out of town for the weekend.  On Sunday morning, I had a lot of bleeding and immediately called my do...

It was September 30, 2015 and I had my 20-week sonogram.  Because of my age, we had genetic testing performed, and by 15 weeks we knew our baby was a boy.  Therefore, the sonogram that families are excited for where they find out the gender, was pretty uneventful for our family…or so we thought.  This pregnancy was unlike the other two.  First of all, I had my first child very young so the 9-year difference between him and my second was very different.  Add another 9 years for the third and everything was different.  It had been scary early on because I had some bleeding, and I had to be on medication to help sustain the pregnancy.  After all of that, we thought we were in the clear.  We had sold our house for various reasons and were packing to move....

Jess and I were 24 weeks and 1 day along when we heard the two words that no parent should ever have to hear, "No heartbeat." I called the doctor's office that morning, Monday, November 30th, because Luke was always a very active baby in the middle of the night and early in the morning.  I hadn't felt him that night and when I woke up I tried all my tricks that would get him to wiggle and nothing was working. By the time I called the doctor's office that morning, I was panicking. The doctor sent us to St. Luke's labor and delivery floor, and once we arrived there we were sitting in the room that will be forever engraved in our minds.  They weren't able to find Luke's heartbeat with the Doppler and right away the tiny bit of hope that we were still holding onto...

Meet our newest Bridget's Cradles team member, Amanda Farris! Amanda is coming on as a full-time volunteer. She will be filling a needed role in our organization as our Director of Operations. Amanda will help with fundraising and coordination of our volunteers, hospitals, and day-to-day operations. She lives in California and has now set up a Bridget's Cradles "West Coast Division" in her home! 

I'd love for you all to meet her and hear her passion for serving bereaved families:

Ashley: Amanda, how did you first become interested in Bridget's Cradles organization?

Amanda: I grew up in Wichita before moving to Georgia my senior year of high school with my family. Wichita has and always will be home to me. I've been lucky enough to visit about once a yea...

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